[Grunter]

Talk to a close friend or professional. Believe me it's amazing how fast your life can go to **** when you're in that frame of mind.

Not saying this would/could happen to you, however it happened to someone very close to me, who was going through a tough patch mentally (similar to your comments). Unfortunately it got to much for him where he thought that life would be better if he separated from his wife and moved out (kids involved as well), and went out seeking a "better" more exciting life.

He completely regrets that he didn't seek help to work through his own feelings before it got to that point. He feels worse now and no longer has the close family he adored. Grass isn't always greener on the other side, although it can sure look attractive before you get there.